TGIF???

It's Friday... and surprise surprise I'm actually not happy about that.

This is what it means to me:

- 1 more week I spent doing nothing
- 1 more week closer to the beginning of fall
- 1 more week of debt, closer to payment deadlines
- No mail during the weekend :(
- Less time left to slack off

Maybe weekends should mean more to me, but right now they don't. I guess I'll have to get moving if I want to feel any better about how things are going. I will fill out those job applications today and send them off. I promise.

I feel really bad sending out applications when I'll only be here for such a limited amount of time. I don't like not being dependable. I like the fact that I've had the job I had (will be moving over to math department, remember?) for 3 years or so. I like the consistency that implies about me.

Unfortunately, I have to break that consistency if I want to make changes in the system. I dream about making lasting impressions. I'm a mover and a shaker, or at least I like to think of myself that way.

If I don't agree with something going on around campus, I'll say something about it. Try to rally the troops. Do something about the situation. I was never someone who just stood there.

So when the math department asked me to move over, I was like, "really??? sure" and felt bad when they got full and I couldn't move over. I had taken like a month to say, "I guess I'm not doing it this year" and felt so guilty.

I don't like feeling guilty like that.

So this year, I'm going to try to make a trip to campus some time during the summer so I can get my stuff done. I have a gazillion things to do, first of which is to e-mail the ITS people so I can get outlook to have the university settings. I want to download all my e-mail to my computer so it can stop saying that I've filled up and I'm over my inbox size limit.

Our financial aid department sends notices to your e-mail about your financial aid package. So it's very important that it not bounce things back to them...

But should I be happy it's Friday? It's just another day.

- V.